2012 - 25 : Just Keep Swimming

So last week i enrolled in swimming class. It was my second time joining swimming class. The first time was in 2009 with a group from my company. it was a big group about 15 students and i was really uncomfortable being in the water....i couldnt even float at that time....i was a little bit behind my other classmates. When i started to feel comfortable being in the water, the class was over.  
I did go swimming once in a while but i didnt have a right skill.  Secretly imitating other swimmers at the pool...hehe...
Realizing that i will never get the skill right without a real teacher, i decided to re-take swimming class. This time around is a little bit easier as i've already quite confident being in the water. Then i can focus on getting the skill right.
The class was quite small. About 3-6 people per teacher with different level of skill. There was a first timer and she's struggling to get comfortable in the water. She gave excuses for not be able to get the skill right "...d*mmit...suck it up...just do it....it's really annoying..other people were struggling as well..."
Some people are neutrally have the swimming ability. Just need to brush off on the skill....but others are struggling. I'm struggling to get my skill right. A little bit slow but in the right direction. Whatever it is..the most important thing is stop giving excuses...and JUST KEEP SWIMMING......
Reminding me of my diving instructor. When my friend told my instructor that she cant do one of the module because she had a short breath. My instructor told her "No you can do it. Ive seen you do it. It's all up here" (pointing her finger at her head).....so it's mind over body....haa..

2011 - 29 : Life As We Know It.

The past is history, the future is a mystery, but today is a gift—that’s why they call it ‘the present’. That is the life as we know it.

There's nothing that we can do about the past. There are things that i wish i could do over but i wont be where i'm if i changed the past. I felt bless with my present and everyday i pray to Allah for His guidance.

I have a good life and i shouldnt let anything make me felt threaten or less thankful. i shouldnt compare myself to the other people.

After college, i felt like everything around me is moving very fast. I felt like i'm moving but apparently i'm going nowhere. I felt like i cannot catch up with other's pace. i should stop comparing my pace with the other because that's life as we know it.

2011-26 : A letter to Future Me

this is the letter that i sent to myself for the last 2 years

dear future me,

for what it worth, it is never too late to be whoever you want to be. there is no time limit. start whenever you want. you can change or stay the same. there's no rule to this thing. you can make the best or the worst of it. i hope you make the best of it. and i hope you see things that startle you and i hope you feel things you never felt before. i hope you meet people with different point of view. i hope you live a life you are proud of. if you find you are not, i hope you have strength to start all over again.

regards,

myself

2011 - 20 : Love yourself

love yourself...make yourself comfortable....do things that make you feel happy... value yourself...dont let people let make you feel worthless...value those who love you...make them happy...

2011 - 19 : The pray

last friday i went to a talk session. one thing that struck me when the speaker talked about the pray.
there's hadith say that Allah will never put us in any challange that we cannot face it. it means that all the test/problems that we have to face is because we can go through it. the challange that He gave us is to test us.
Meaning that up to some level we can face the challange, therefore it is our respensibility to pray for his guidance. in case that our pray is not being answered, do not give up. it is because He has a bigger plan for us, if not in this life, it might be afterlife.
no matter how hard the life is, b happy and keep on praying to Allah that He will make it easier for us.

2011 - 18 : Human Instinct

last week, my group was having a nice lunch with our former head of department. While having the lunch, he told us about instinct. He is known as a very details man. I remembered a couple years ago, when i had just started working and was assigned to prepare a paperwork for him. I had to redo the paper for more than 20 times. Everytime, i brought the paper to him, he will always find mistakes that i have to correct. But the sweetest thing was when he approved the paper. I felt like jumping.
Anyhow, he told us the secret on how he found the mistakes on the paper. He said it just a hunch. Sometimes, when he felt like something not right, he will look closely and he just find something that need to be corrected.
I remembered watching a documentaries on animal instinct. Animal survival depends on their instinct. for example, if they felt predator around, most probably, there's predator around. However, human dont really listen to the instinct. i guess most of the time we think logically rather than believe in instinct. Maybe, i should start listening to my instinct.

2011 - 16 : Good Thing

Sometime we need to let go a good thing to give a way to a better thing.

2011 - 14 : F***ng Perfect

When most of the songs are about going to party and getting drunk...this song is really inspiring.

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred... such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same


The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that... ?

2011 - 11 : Pay It Forward

years ago, i watched a movie titled Pay It Forward. the movie was quite boring initially but getting interesting as it goes on. it was about a boy who started a school project called Pass It Forward to change the world for the better. In this project, a person will do a favor (which was initially started by the boy) the recipient of the favor will do favor to the third party rather than paying the favor back.
i was intrigued by the idea. i always hear people saying 'if you help out people today, people will help you out later on'. it is more like returning the favor. then 'if you are doing a bad thing to people, bad thing will happen to you'. it is called KARMA. Forwarding a favor is not a new concept but it does make sense. Everytime we do a good deed, it spread to others. therefore,
if we are given an opportunity to help other people, do not whine, we should grap the opportunity to repay those who has been good to us.
Do not looking for any incentive, be sincere. Just be reminded of all the favor that we never had any chance to pay.