Being better

In 1 months ill be 30 years old. When i was a kid, i used to think that being 30 years old was really old. However, i dont really feel old. In fact im still wondering what im going to be in the future.
Sometime i wonder...am i now is a better version of myself compared to the younger me?
I reviewed my new year resolution for the past few years....apperently, i did want to be a better person. I wrote things like i want to do volunteer work, call my mum more often, take quran classes, pray in jemaah, exercise more, get married...isnt it irony that some of the good things that i planned is not even within my control.unfortunately, i didnt make it happen even for those within my control.
I cant say for sure why but a person told me, if you want to do something good but you didnt do it....maybe it's not the time yet...tak sampai seru katanye...it could be true...ive seen ppl around me turn into a better person but off course i dont even know half of their story. Maybe because of life circumstances, motivation, family, responsibility....i dont know....what i learn is that if a same thing happen to different ppl, it did give a different impact.
Maybe when you got older, your heart will be soften to do good things...you will think less about yourself...and more about what you can do to make the world a better place.
In 5 years insyaAllah when i read this entry...i want o tell myself that i am a better me. I want to look in the mirror and telling myself that, that older me is a better me.